Life can be fulfilling at both 16 and also 60. 25 and 35. Joy is timeless. Learning how to make the most of where you are does not have an age cut-off or a deadline. You will always be able to sit and wonder about things that could have gone differently. But you can also trust: you have not missed out on what was meant for you.
I know it’s hard to trust when so much is unknown, so instead of trying to make sense of it all at once, take it all color by color, tree by tree, scent by scent, take it one by one. You don’t have to take it all in at once. Take in the newness of it all one moment at a time without worrying about the moments to come. Let that be enough. Breathe deep and let this moment be enough. Let this be a place where you find peace.
Remember the ground beneath your feet, you belong here. No one has taken your place. You are not too far from grace. Your story might be unfolding differently than expected but that doesn’t mean it won’t be beautiful. Where you are meant to be, you will be in time, no matter your age or stage of life. Life is fun. Let it be. Let it flourish at it’s own pace.
You can’t heal on someone else’s agenda, by someone else’s standards, in someone else’s timeline, with someone else’s rulebook, for someone else’s benefit, under someone else’s expectations, or by someone else’s urging. Your healing is for you, by you, within you, about you, and through you. Until you make healing for you instead of for others, healing will be out of reach.
Healing yourself will ask more of you, more rest, more self love, more letting go, more time for learning, more space for transformation, more honesty about how you feel, more time developing good habits, more courage to try new practices, more time cultivating your inner peace, more faith in yourself and the process. HEALING DOESN’T MEAN THE DAMAGE NEVER EXISTED. IT MEANS THE DAMAGE NO LONGER CONTROLS OUR LIVES.
Some periods of our growth are so confusing that we don’t even recognize that growth is happening. We may feel hostile or angry or weepy and hysterical, or we may feel depressed. It would never occur to us, unless we stumbled on a book, or a person who explained to us, explained us that we were in fact in the process of change, of actually becoming larger spiritually than we were before.
Whenever we grow, we tend to feel it, we tend to feel it as a young seed must feel the weight and inertia of the earth as it seeks to break out of its shell on its way to becoming a plant. Often the feeling is anything but pleasant. But what is most unpleasant is the not knowing what is happening. Those long periods when something inside ourselves seems to be waiting, holding its breath, unsure about what the next step should be, eventually become the periods we wait for, waiting for those periods that we realize that we are being prepared for the next phase of our life, and that in all probability a new level of the PERSONALITY is about to be revealed. KEEP WORKING & STAY READY TO RECEIVE.
(This paragraph got nothing to do with the post above. Now the question everyone asking in university group; “Is there a secret instagram account of TAP?”. ANSWER IS YES, only 5 people know about it. I use it more like a travel timeline diary. My real instagram has around 16k followers, I don’t even know 99% of those people. Way back some asshole stole & published my workout images in an Amsterdam based male erotic model magazine, one of my ex-bitch informed me about it when she was planning to hire a stripper for her sister’s bachelorette party. Fun part is, that’s the time period i didn’t even leave my country for one whole year & I was/am really happy with my DATA ANALYST JOB. Since then, i am not uploading my face to instagram. But i am quite active in snapchat, i have streaks with all 122 contacts. I know & i have met every single one of them. I trust all of them, nobody will screenshot or steal my pictures there.)
Don’t worry about what people think of you or about the way they try to make you feel. If people want to see you as a good person, they will. If they want to see you as a bad person, absolutely nothing you do will stop them. Ironically, the more you try to show them your good intentions, the more reason you give them to knock you down, because they know they’ve got a part of you that will care about what they do.
Keep your head up high and be confident in what you do. Be confident in your intentions and keep your eyes ahead instead of wasting your time on those who want to drag you back by not caring or by caring the wrong way. Because you can’t change people’s views, you have to believe that true change for yourself comes from within you, not from anyone else. At the end, it’s all about your understanding of own intentions & their importance in your life’s timeline. TIME is non-refundable, use it with right intention. You must believe, and you must have faith that time itself is much more able to prove your point than you are. (Not my words).
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