Sunday story time.. 03.

A high school teacher once said;
“Being close & open to your opposite sex is important, you become more transparent, there’s no insecurities which makes you more confident. Later that also helps you build better relationship/friendships”.
I took those words bit too seriously i guess.
Even though my name is bit spoiled with university girls, I haven’t dated many in my almost close to 30 life. Actually i never missed dating someone. Being an extrovert & a LEO, I always had/have options to choose with whom i want to hangout/party/travel/workout/get cozy/watch Netflix/movie night/go hiking or shopping.

Now back to the story/confession/realisation, here it goes:
Way back when I was getting over a breakup, I used to spend most of my night filled with anger & a boyish temper. I didn’t realize it back then, I had so much to achieve in my life & such negative feelings weren’t helping. I wondered why she was able to get over faster than I was. Later I realised, it’s because I was spending so much time hating that situation rather than getting over it.

Anyone from my university friends scratching their head which breakup i am talking about; it’s my bestfriend DEMI. We are bestfriends since 7th century, but we have a mad crazy past. We dated for a very short period of time, I wasn’t ready for a COMMITMENT & i literally thought we were just fooling around. Fault was mine. I said YES to 4 girls for prom night & 2 out of those 4 were our seniors. I was expecting DEMI will be cool with it. To fight back & make me jealous, DEMI went on a date with one of my friends named Ivan. Being a loyal bro, Ivan asked my permission whether he is allowed to take DEMI out for a full monty brunch. DEMI didn’t like her date. She wanted to patch what fell apart in between us, but i was more focused with my studies & part-time job. I didn’t care much because i am the kinda guy who’s happy when my bank account grows, my life is more about my growth rather than allowing someone to mess with my piece of peace. Let’s say, I am a happy man because i am married to my bank account.

It became a runner/chaser situation for a week. Sad to say, i was the runner. One saturday evening it was snowing really bad. It was a lightbulb moment for me, I invited DEMI to try my homemade sourdough pizza. It wasn’t tasty like store-bought pizza, but we both ate it with pin drop silence. That was my first try with sourdough fermentation. Next day DEMI came to my apartment early morning, we followed another recipe from some website & we baked that pizza perfectly. We both were upset about each other’s behaviour. An amazing conversation after a good pizza helped us heal. We both got the closure & clarity we needed.

Coming back to this current day called TODAY, the only person who still sits on my lap is DEMI. I can ask her for a head & back massage anytime i want. We go on long drives. It’s a weddings/royal dinner invitations/travelling to some islands during weekends, we are each other’s +1 partner. If weather is not ok, we make it better by cuddling/spooning each other. 3-4 times she suggested whether we can date again! And as usual, I am not ready for dating experiments. But we already have an amazing equation, i don’t want to destroy that by allowing some romantic melodrama. We have a verbal agreement, there’s a sweet punishment if we miss each other’s phonecall or facetime. Last time i missed DEMI’s call when i was attending a university seminar, i had to send a butt naked snapchat streak to all my 186 friends as punishment. Our communication is flawless. The truth is, it took us a long time to build the amazing equation we share & i am not strong enough to hurt her. If i know someone who is TRUTHFUL & CONSISTENT so far in my life, it’s DEMI. Now there’s nothing except RESPECT & ADMIRATION towards each other.

Takeaway:
Whatever struggle you are facing in your life,
make sure you are not poisoning yourself with anger when you could be giving yourself love.
When you are filled with anger or hate,
the only person that suffers is you because most of the people you hate don’t know it and the rest don’t care.
Fill yourself with SELF-LOVE & SUCCESS before you are in search of LOVE.

Tap OUT..🖖

True me.. Tap-781..

There are two types of men in this world.

1: Work 9 to 5. Get married in their late 30s. Make 2-3 kids. Return home tired after work. Expect wife to cook, clean, wash clothes & raise kids. Watch TV at night. Get 5 blowjobs in a month. Wait for weekend to go grocery shopping. Sleep like a 80 year old at 11pm. They get mad at their family or wife to relieve the stress of work. These people pretend being happy their whole life till they retire or till they end up being broke.

2: Who has a fire in them. Who have an eventful life. Who have more stories to tell their next generation. Who build legacies. Who dedicate quality time to family & passion. Work is a priority, because it’s their choice. Who dare to love because they love their life first & there’s no negotiation in writing a beautiful love story which can build memories. Who don’t wait for weekend & who value knowledge. Basically those who LIVE.

I can’t judge 1 or 2. Do what works for you. But the first lesson of life is to LOVE YOURSELF. Nobody is born perfect.
When you love yourself, you glow from the inside.
You attract people who love, respect, and appreciate your energy.
Everything starts with and how you feel about yourself.
Start feeling worthy, valuable and deserving of receiving the best that life has to offer.
PART OF BEING A MAN IS LEARNING TO TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR YOUR SUCCESSES AND FOR YOUR FAILURES.
YOU CAN’T GO BLAMING OTHERS OR BEING JEALOUS.
FEEING SOMEBODY ELSE’S SUCCESS AS YOUR FAILURE IS A CANCEROUS WAY TO LIVE.
BE HUMBLE, KIND & MAGNETIC. (Not my words).

Tap OUT..💪

True me.. Tap-148..

I have taken little bit inspiration & experience on why/where/how/what I went through my life!!

Sneakers, joggers, hoodie/round neck t-shirt, little bit skating, gym & pizza, because I am still the same 13 street smart assholic kid.

Cheesecake, roasted lemon pepper chicken barbecue & wine with blue crab caviar nachos, because I turn classy after 9pm twice in a week.

Business enthusiast, data analytics & PhD, because I never want to stop learning.

Boots, boobs, beaches, bitches, shopping, better flight/hotel deals, because I am one self-made INDEPENDENT DICK & I met none who’s worth of my LOVE or LOYALITY.

Tap OUT..😘

Demi!! SORRY!! 🙏

Hey BESTIE,

It’s not fun when communication is blocked. I have no issues in accepting I messed up big time. I wasn’t able to make it. Don’t grant me a SORRY just like that. You know I don’t believe in that word.

Just remember “I will never lie to you. I will never break your trust. I will never hide anything. I will never block your access to my tomorrow. I am lucky to have you as my guardian angel. You are only one person in front of whom I can be emotionally naked. Doesn’t matter I screw 20 more bitches, you will never lose access to my life. People come and go, all are worthless because no-one stands the test of time, their validity is limited. You are my shining star. Your company makes me feel like I found diamond in a coal mine.”

One thing I am confessing, “I was falling for you during a certain phase of my life. It’s you who broke it. Can’t forgive you. Whenever you say those 3 words to me, I don’t want to hear it. And pardon me, I can’t serve you anything such in exchange.” I will unblock your number tomorrow after interview with my PhD supervisor. I am little stressed. We will start from where we left. I assure you will get all your answers. We planned shopping & food during next month meeting, no changes with that. But I am substracting Frank from that plan. And we will not talk this shit during that time, let’s finish what’s left unsaid.

Tap OUT..😘😘😘😘

True me.. Tap-119..

Met an old engineering batchmate while shopping grocery. Let’s name her XXX.

XXX: Tap, you are looking tall today. I mean more tall.
Me: Yeah, new sneakers & little extra confidence I think.

Tap OUT..😜

Tru2Day128

In a relationship if someone is not moving up with time; just move forward with your life towards your goals & success, with or without them. You need a better you tomorrow. If deserving & you both are meant to be together, the other person will step up to catch up.

Relationship TAROT (13-31-July-2019)..

Let’s read cards first. I will tell you more later. This is for collective, irrespective of any SUN-MOON-RISING Zodiac/Element.

1. Knight of Wands: This card represents FIRE element (Aries, Leo, Sagittarius). It talks about Power, Passion & Frustration too. Basically Knight of Wands is a fast moving person/feelings who can jump/switch between places or people if he/she isn’t getting what’s needed. This is the play boy/girl your parents adviced you to stay away. 😜

2. The Moon: The moon is card for Cancer Zodiac. It’s a element under WATER sign, which is all about thoughts. Thoughts can be about Illusions, Psychic messages or dreams.

3. The Hermit: This card represents zodiac sign VIRGO under element EARTH. The behaviour of the person you are dealing with has put you under a stress/trauma. It can also point towards deep contemplation about a situation/person, that’s why you entered HERMIT mode. Just thinking & thinking without making any moves or taking any actions. It’s about a period of silent pause.

4. Knight of Pentacles: This is also a card under element EARTH, but represents Zodiacs of Aquarius/Capricorn/Pisces. Which talks about reputation/reliability/results/risk. So now that you have enough information about the situation/person after so many things going in your head/heart, you have a clear picture about what to give/get. The problem with this card/situation is; this is the slowest moving knight in entire deck & this slowness can make otherside feel bored.

You need to fasten up your thought or moves to get what/whom you need. After having a heart to heart conversation with yourself, you realised the value of yourself & your person. It’s time to build something beautiful with someone stable & mature who knows how to stand/walk their TRUTH.

Now mercury already in retrograde & next full moon on 16-July-2019, YES all emotions will pour out emotionally & some in action too. Before reaching a conclusion, wait till retrograde period is over on 02-August-2019. I am not only saying this in perspective of relationships, maybe you are planning to start a new job or business as well. Just stay away from all reboot or anything new for a while, things done during this timeframe are short-lived.

(N.B: Guidance are for those who seek. If you have a strong head & heart; please avoid such readings & follow your intuition.)

Pick up wack!! Best one- Hope SO..

This one is from my university days.

Yes, I was crushing over a raunchy brunette during those days. Definitely not Love, I was never ready for that. Once met that girl near bus stop during a rainy day. A tiny conversation lead to so much more later on, not a line. Just read it..😂

Girl: Heya Tap. Where you wanna go in this weather?

Tap: Hey not much. It’s spar, to buy chicken breasts & wine.

Girl: I heard a lot about those late night parties in your apartment.

Tap: Yeah, I would love to invite you someday.

Girl: Is there a barbecue party tonight as well?

Tap: Yeah.

Girl: You shouldn’t invite me, I am totally wet because of this rain.

Tap: Rather I would love to invite you right now. Let me show you the right way to get wet. 😂

(No further 18+ talks, I am a big flirt. & Yes I know how to scratch the right cord).

Tru2Day67

Some people put a front like they are happy as fuck, without any such gain. If you have sorrow or some emotions inside, pour it out to seem like a legit human.

You can’t catch a fish without hook. Stop damaging your own brain with mindgames.