If you feel like you’re torn between who the world is telling you to be and who your heart is telling you to be, go with your heart. Always go with your heart. The world may be telling you to go one way with your relationships, your career, your friendships, your home. The world may be telling you to act a certain way, be less emotional, be more emotional, be louder, be softer, to be something else. Don’t listen.
Quiet down the outside world however you can meditate, take a trip, shut off your phone, open your journal and listen to what your heart is telling you deep inside. Listen to how it feels about your career, your relationships. Listen to how it feels about your life. At the end of the day, you will never go wrong when you follow your heart because, that’s the AUTHENTIC version of you. (Not my words.)
There are so many popular figures who want people to think they are strong and tough because they use substances and party all night long. To me, strong is when you can sit through your problems and feel your emotions, when you don’t have to hide them. There have been nights where I’ve had to sit on my hands because I want to act out, because I physically can’t sit still in the pain or I’m trying to distract myself from living in the moment.
Stop running and start dealing with life and your problems. It could be as simple as not checking your phone when you’re uncomfortable or alone. Listen to what’s going on in your mind and respect the thoughts coming to you. If you’re spending your entire life chasing the next party, what are you running away from?