There are so many popular figures who want people to think they are strong and tough because they use substances and party all night long. To me, strong is when you can sit through your problems and feel your emotions, when you don’t have to hide them. There have been nights where I’ve had to sit on my hands because I want to act out, because I physically can’t sit still in the pain or I’m trying to distract myself from living in the moment.
Stop running and start dealing with life and your problems. It could be as simple as not checking your phone when you’re uncomfortable or alone. Listen to what’s going on in your mind and respect the thoughts coming to you. If you’re spending your entire life chasing the next party, what are you running away from?
Everyone wants to know how i tolerate my bestfriend DEMI since past 700 years of our friendship because her attitude is bit aggressive?
Let me answer & YES, it’s a long answer: We were attending Lory’s birthday party near Cardiff bay. Party was over & some Justin Bieber song started playing. DEMI walked towards me & said; “Rudey, my pussy is drying up because of this shit song. Let’s leave & let’s drive to Tenby. We will talk about everything after reaching the beach.”
We both laughed & i still remember those exact words. And Yes, DEMI still calls me RUDEY because of my rude/angry/grumpy face. We went through a bad fight before 5 months of that birthday party & i stopped talking to Demi. I decided i must allow her some time to think & respond logically instead of continuing that fight. Only few friends know Tenby is my favourite coastal town in Britain & i prefer afternoon swimming when i think about relaxing. DEMI made the right choice with place & timing. We went swimming & she broke the ice while chilling at beach. We had a long open vivid conversation about everything which went loose. We were able to come back stronger. Years gone & our equation keeps getting better with time. No matter how much i deny, she is the sassiest angel i ever came across. Bestfriends for some good reasons, and i can’t appreciate more.
27-Feb is the date we had a bad fight & we both stopped communication for 5 months. We both still talk about the stupid reason behind it & what we missed in those 5 months. We laugh at each other’s silent treatment. We tease each other about why that was just unnecessary.
We humans always take goodness for granted & our ego stops us from accepting our flaws. We miss opportunities. We disrespect good people. Sometimes we hurt others without even knowing. We make blunders easily.
But there are very few who accept & cross that path to acknowledge own mess. Who says it’s easy!! Very few are ready to talk about what’s wrong in them & why they are ready to change for better instead of farting from mouth “THAT’S HOW I AM”. I admire those who strive to be a better human. It’s easy to go vulnerable towards such people who come with clean intentions. Every equation can be easy, soothing, happening & loving. JUST CHOOSE THOSE WHO CHOOSE YOU.
A high school teacher once said; “Being close & open to your opposite sex is important, you become more transparent, there’s no insecurities which makes you more confident. Later that also helps you build better relationship/friendships”. I took those words bit too seriously i guess. Even though my name is bit spoiled with university girls, I haven’t dated many in my almost close to 30 life. Actually i never missed dating someone. Being an extrovert & a LEO, I always had/have options to choose with whom i want to hangout/party/travel/workout/get cozy/watch Netflix/movie night/go hiking or shopping.
Now back to the story/confession/realisation, here it goes: Way back when I was getting over a breakup, I used to spend most of my night filled with anger & a boyish temper. I didn’t realize it back then, I had so much to achieve in my life & such negative feelings weren’t helping. I wondered why she was able to get over faster than I was. Later I realised, it’s because I was spending so much time hating that situation rather than getting over it.
Anyone from my university friends scratching their head which breakup i am talking about; it’s my bestfriend DEMI. We are bestfriends since 7th century, but we have a mad crazy past. We dated for a very short period of time, I wasn’t ready for a COMMITMENT & i literally thought we were just fooling around. Fault was mine. I said YES to 4 girls for prom night & 2 out of those 4 were our seniors. I was expecting DEMI will be cool with it. To fight back & make me jealous, DEMI went on a date with one of my friends named Ivan. Being a loyal bro, Ivan asked my permission whether he is allowed to take DEMI out for a full monty brunch. DEMI didn’t like her date. She wanted to patch what fell apart in between us, but i was more focused with my studies & part-time job. I didn’t care much because i am the kinda guy who’s happy when my bank account grows, my life is more about my growth rather than allowing someone to mess with my piece of peace. Let’s say, I am a happy man because i am married to my bank account.
It became a runner/chaser situation for a week. Sad to say, i was the runner. One saturday evening it was snowing really bad. It was a lightbulb moment for me, I invited DEMI to try my homemade sourdough pizza. It wasn’t tasty like store-bought pizza, but we both ate it with pin drop silence. That was my first try with sourdough fermentation. Next day DEMI came to my apartment early morning, we followed another recipe from some website & we baked that pizza perfectly. We both were upset about each other’s behaviour. An amazing conversation after a good pizza helped us heal. We both got the closure & clarity we needed.
Coming back to this current day called TODAY, the only person who still sits on my lap is DEMI. I can ask her for a head & back massage anytime i want. We go on long drives. It’s a weddings/royal dinner invitations/travelling to some islands during weekends, we are each other’s +1 partner. If weather is not ok, we make it better by cuddling/spooning each other. 3-4 times she suggested whether we can date again! And as usual, I am not ready for dating experiments. But we already have an amazing equation, i don’t want to destroy that by allowing some romantic melodrama. We have a verbal agreement, there’s a sweet punishment if we miss each other’s phonecall or facetime. Last time i missed DEMI’s call when i was attending a university seminar, i had to send a butt naked snapchat streak to all my 186 friends as punishment. Our communication is flawless. The truth is, it took us a long time to build the amazing equation we share & i am not strong enough to hurt her. If i know someone who is TRUTHFUL & CONSISTENT so far in my life, it’s DEMI. Now there’s nothing except RESPECT & ADMIRATION towards each other.
Takeaway: Whatever struggle you are facing in your life, make sure you are not poisoning yourself with anger when you could be giving yourself love. When you are filled with anger or hate, the only person that suffers is you because most of the people you hate don’t know it and the rest don’t care. Fill yourself with SELF-LOVE & SUCCESS before you are in search of LOVE.
Life is kind of like a party. You invite a lot of people, some leave early, some stay all night, some laugh with you, some laugh at you, and some show up really late. But in the end, after the fun, there are a few who stay to help you clean up the mess. And most of the time, they aren’t even the ones who made the mess. These people are your true friends in life.
Being a LEO, Yes I enjoy all the attention & Love that I don’t deserve. Sometimes they boost confidence, make you feel special, grasp you into a tiny bubble of HAPPINESS & then make you realize that “Some Happiness is scored in arms, not in bed or couch”.
Thanks to everyone who wished me. & Again another huge THANK YOU note will be there who know my real birthday. I adore both, because of gifts & celebrations. I am happy enough to throw party twice & get the best of both worlds in the naughtiest possible way.
It’s a bug which bites all. We all have a story ongoing or behind to share related to the heading of this post. But one thing I would love to share is; LOVE is lite. Yes it is, Taking care of someone sidelining their flaws, Share your life with someone, Express your demands to that someone, Owning that someone’s sorrow & low, Communicate each & every aspect of your heartfelt desires with someone.
Yes build it on the foundation of COMMUNICATION, TRUTH & TRUST. Kill that ego, fear, deception & arrogance in you. Listen to your heart. Love is like a guide towards a better path in your life. Learn to balance it with your work & day-2-day life, maintain that partnership or give-and-take at 50/50. Stop thinking, start moving forward together.
All of it will definitely lead to some materialistic gains & intimacy in coming days. Don’t forget to buy enough condoms & lubes if you want to make your beloved feel special each moment. Dare to make a bold move someday. Get your boy/girl out on a party/dinner, express silently how you want to share the same bed forever with them from a specific date & name it marriage or ceremony of two people decided to fuck each other forever physically+mentally. It’s beautiful, trust me there. (Tip for my bros: Don’t hesitate to score that butthole, you deserve to get/give the best)
Now why things get wrapped up in shit?
Answer: Remember whatever you give will come back as it is. If you are brewing anything negative anywhere towards anyone, it will follow up towards you as well. Doesn’t matter it’s romantic or any other equation; time will make it worse for you in coming days. God blesses the broke first, because they need support to heal. And those who hurt others will get exactly the same today or tomorrow. Don’t wait till it blows up on your face. Develop the guts to seek forgiveness.
Universe knows how to balance scales. You focus more on being a person with right attitude & positive vibration. Truth sets everyone free. Life will definitely seem amazing at a point. We all are reaching our point of HAPPINESS. LOVE will follow the same path.