If you think you are a GOOD PERSON, give without expecting anything in return. It may not come back to you immediately. But your almighty is watching, someday that REWARD of giving will be beyond your imaginations.
Doesn’t matter what’s your state of mind right now, learn to face your truth & responsibilities. We need to move forward in life always, don’t lapse it.
One tiny tip; do something for your financial stability. That’s gonna lift you higher on a longer run. Progress is the only pattern of life. Don’t smash your growth by holding yourself back in any negativity.